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February 11th, 2006
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9 lasts:
Last dollar spent: Gas.
Last cigarette: Never had one.
Last beverage: coke C2.
Last movie: waiting
Last phone call: joe.
Last song played: open up. Korn.
Last bubble bath: don’t remember.
Last time you cried: Last week.
Last thing you ate: pizza.
8 have you evers.
Have you ever dated a best friend: no.
Have you ever skinny dipped: Yes.
Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: no.
Have you ever lost someone you loved: Yes.
Have you ever been dumped: Yes.
Have you ever been drunk and threw up: fuck yeah.
Have you ever ran away: Yes.
7 states you've been to.
1. Ct
2. Florida
3. California
4. Massachusetts
5. Maine
6. New York
7. Vermont
6 things you've done today: (in no particular order...)
1. talked on the phone
2. Do homework I didn't want to do.
3. watched a movie.
4. returned a movie.
5. got gas.
6. Cleaned my room...
5 of your favorite things in no order.
1. Friends
2. Music
3. Being with Joe
4. My car
5. Pizza
4 people you can tell [almost] anything to in no order..
1. Joe
2. Magoo
3. Melissa
4. Jenny
3 things that make you smile.
1. Friends
2. Music
3. Joe
2 things you want to do before you die.
1. Have no regrets
2. Have as much fun as possible
1 thing that you cannot live without
…umm…trick question?
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[Friday
January 20th, 2006
9:46am] |
| Lots of random questions. TAKE IT!!!!!!!!! | | The Basics | | Name: | Kristie | | Gender: | Female | | Age: | 16 | | Date of birth: | 05.06.1989 | | Grade: | 11 | | Location: | Old Lyme | | Do you have a job? If so, what and do you like it?: | Yes, Pharmacy, No | | Your looks | | Hair color: | brown/blonde | | Hair color you wish you had: | i dont know | | Eye color: | brown | | Eye color you wish you had: | i dont know | | Hair length: | medium | | Height: | 5'6 | | Weight: | i dont know | | Best physical feature: | i dont know | | Worst physical feature: | i dont know | | Do you think you're good looking?: | sure | | Social Life | | Introvert or extrovert?: | extrovert | | On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest obviously) how outgoing are you?: | 7 | | Do you have a lot of friends?: | no | | How many?: | i dont know... | | Is quality or quantity of friends more important?: | quality | | Would you die without your friends?: | yes | | When in a conversation with you, what should we expect?: | weirdness | | Do you act differently around your friends just to fit in?: | no | | How do you usually act around your friends?: | the same as i act around strangers | | If you were someone else, would you be friends with you?: | sure | | Why do people like you (if they do)?: | i dont know, ask them | | Do you fit into any kind of cliche (goth, jock, prep, etc)?: | no | | Do you find it easier to talk to guys or girls?: | depends on the person | | Do you prefer talking in person, on the phone, or online?: | either in person or on the phone...actually i just love talking to people | | Do you hate anyone?: | yes | | Do people ever get the wrong impression of you?: | yes | | Love Life | | Are you straight, bisexual, or gay?: | straight as a ...i dont know, just really straight | | Single or taken?: | taken | | Why are you single if you are?: | -- | | Are you romantic? How romantic are you on a scale of 1-10?: | i dont know... | | Are you a chick/guy magnet?: | no | | What do you find romantic?: | i dont know, depends on the mood | | How many boyfriends or girlfriends have you had in your life?: | 3 | | Define love: | -- | | Have you ever been in love?: | i dont know, i think so | | Is love important to you?: | yes | | Do you believe in love at first sight?: | nope | | Do you believe in soul mates?: | i dont know | | Is love a mistake?: | never | | What is the most important aspect to a good relationship?: | communication | | Do looks matter?: | not really, somewhat, but i got a good looking one so it doesnt matter. | | Ugly and sweet or hott and mean?: | hot and sweet | | What is the best thing about the opposite (or same) sex?: | i dont know | | What is the worst thing about the opposite (or same) sex?: | i dont know | | Do you want to get married?: | maybe someday | | If so, at what age?: | -- | | Music | | What is your favorite music genre?: | i listen to everything | | What is your least favorite music genre?: | i listen to everything...country is least favorite | | Name some of your favorite bands: | i dont know...green day, korn, 50 cent... | | Name some bands you hate: | my chemical romance | | What's your favorite song....or are there too many to list?: | too many to list | | How many concerts have you been to?: | 5 | | What was your first concert and how long ago was it?: | billy joel...pretty long ago | | What bands did you like when you were little?: | the eagles, billy joel...people like that | | Do you prefer cds or mp3s?: | depends where i am | | This or that | | Coke or pepsi (ahh..such a classic): | coke | | Night or day: | night | | Hot or cold: | cold | | Black or white: | black | | Guys or girls: | guys | | Rock or rap: | both | | paper or plastic: | paper | | video games or computer games: | video games | | card games or board games: | card games | | Your death or the end of the world: | my death | | McDonalds or Burger King: | BK | | Johnny Depp or Orlando Bloom: | JD | | TV or internet: | internet | | Friends or boyfriend/girlfriend: | both... | | Physical pain or emotional pain (which is worse?): | emotional pain | | Green Day or Linkin Park: | green day | | Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: | neither | | Britney Spears or Madonna: | neither | | Beach or mountains: | beach | | Bush or Kerry: | neither | | DVD or VHS: | DVD | | Rainy or sunny: | both | | Punk or prep: | punk | | Beauty or intelligence: | intelligence | | Love or money: | love | | Punk rock or metal: | both | | Chocolate or vanilla: | cocolate | | Burgers or hot dogs: | burgers | | Nickelodean or Cartoon Network: | CN | | Dogs or cats: | dogs | | Random | | Do you have any obsessions?: | yes | | When's the last time you cried?: | last night | | Ever cry yourself to sleep?: | yes | | Ever cry over something stupid?: | yes | | Do you believe in God?: | no | | Have you ever been on stage/been in a play?: | yes | | Ever seen someone die?: | no | | Do you like yourself?: | yes | | Do you hate yourself?: | sometimes | | Do you believe in yourself?: | yes | | Do you get bored easily?: | yes | | Have you ever wanted to die?: | yes | | Do you cut yourself?: | yes | | Do you smoke?: | yes | | Do you drink alcohol?: | yes | | Are you a sensitive/emotional type?: | sometimes | | Ever been drunk or extremely intoxicated?: | yes | | Do you have any nicknames? If so what are they?: | yes. kris, TF | | What's the worst physical injury you've ever had?: | i dont know | | Are you a good person morally?: | sometimes | | Have you ever had sex or made out with a stranger?: | with a stranger? no | | Ever skinny dipped?: | no | | Are you lazy?: | yes | | Do you feel lonely?: | no | | Are you talking to anyone right now?: | yes | | Describe your life: | no | | Ever been so scared that you were sweating and breathing hard or screamed?: | yes | | Are you a people person?: | yes | | Who's the last person who broke your heart?: | i dont know | | Ever been abused?: | no | | Do you believe in ghosts?: | no | | How about UFOs/aliens?: | no | | Have you ever had a crush on a cartoon character?: | no | | Do you think you're hot and/or sexy?: | no | | Do you make fun of yourself?: | yes | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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[Friday
January 13th, 2006
6:07pm] |
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ok, so yeah i was in the middle of a story when the period ended.
so you wanna hear something funny? last night was the one night this week that i didnt tell joe to call me later, or call me when he got home, it was also happened to be the one night that he called me. all the other nights, when i asked him to, he didnt. but the one time i dont say call me later...he calls. i was wicked confussed. haha. ok so yeah. i finished. talk to you all later.
XoxO. <3
~Kristie*
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[Friday
January 13th, 2006
9:42am] |
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YEAY! omg. the am.std exam is over!!!! YEAY! i can finally breath. =-D i think i probably failed, but i dont care, i dont have to worry about it anymore. im so happy. i stayed up so late last night studying and reading and writting shit out for this damn exam. ugh. but i dont care anymore. its over!!! =-) you have no idea how releved i am, i never have to worry about it again.
so you wanna hear something funny? i'll tell you later.
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[Sunday
January 8th, 2006
9:46pm] |
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Alright.
i kinda feel like updating...why? i have no idea...probably because im trying to get away from writting my Term paper. (8-10 pages due Tuesday, now, bere in mind this is only the rough draft. but i havent even started.)hmm, ok, so me and melissa went to see "rumor has it" tonight...it was...eh...ok i guess, i wouldnt see it again.
i dont know what it is lately with me and seeing bad movies. like...lets see the other night, i think it was friday, me and joe rented "dreamcatcher"...now, i had seen it, many times, and it was good in my eyes. but then when i watched it again...it sucked! like...wow...haha. then satuerday night, me and joe rented "Panic Room"..that was suppost to be a good movie...well, heres a shocker for you...it wasnt! it was...umm, stupid...then tonight me and melissa, as i already said, saw rumor has it. and it sucked.
i think i should just give up on movies for a while...but heres a funny story. when we rented "panic room" we got back to my house...this is me and joe. and we put the movie in and it was the wrong one. so we had to go all the way back to Old Lyme and get the right one. so yeah, now i have a free movie rental there, and i also have a free movie rental at blockbuster...so it looks like me and joe will be getting free movies the next couple times. =-) thats pretty kule if you ask me...haha not that you will. lol.
hmm, so, this weekend went by really really REALLY fast. like..whow...where did it go. umm, lets see. friday, i left school early and yeah, i forget what i did. i think...Oh! i went to the church and stayed with my mom till four when she got outta work, cause she was bored. haha, then....umm....oh, i went to the A&P, and bank with her, then when i got home, i got a call from joe telling me he was on break, so i went to old lyme to see him, which pissed me off, cause i was only going to have like 5 mins with him, so i got there as fast as i could, but he wasnt even on break yet, so he gets out to my car and tells me that we've got to go to subway and the chinese food place to pick up food, so we do, and i thought that was part of his 20 mins, and i wasnt happy, but then when we got back to the parmacey, he was like. ok my break starts now. i was like...whow!! kule! lol. so i got to spend like 30 mins with him insted of 20 like normal. so yeah, then we rented dreamcatcher when he got outta work at 8, and hung out at my house till 12.
saturday was...in one word...amazing. i loved that day. im so happy it happened. lol. ok, so friday night when i got home from bringing Joe home, i called him and he asked if tomorrow (saturday) if his mom wasnt going to be home, if i'd come over when i woke up. and of course i said yes. so yeah, i woke up at 8 and called him seeing if his mom was home, she wasnt so i went over and he was still in bed, and we just slept together till like 11. then we had to go pick up his moms car in OS, while we were there we got breakfast, cause i was wicked hungey. so we did that, and then went back to his house, then we just stayed there until...2ish...which was when he had to go to his dads. so i brought him there and we desided to go to a movie. but then we desided that we didnt have time for a movie. because he was suppost to be playing a D&D game around like...6 i think, so yeah, we rented a movie and got KFC and then went back to my house to eat and watch the movie. which was when we realized that they gave us the wrong movie. so we went back to OL and got the right one, then came back to watch it. then after the movie. he called dylan to figure out about the game, and i guess they desided to play sunday. so yeah, we hung out until he had to be home. which consisted of us not being able to figure out what to do. so we went to the mall...of course...and then we came back to my house and watched some of "Swordfish" then i had to bring him back to his dads.
then sunday....i cleaned my room, visited joe on break, got gas in OS, went home, then worked on my term paper...woohoo. i didnt get like any done. then...oh! talked to joe after work, cause he said that if he wasnt playin D&D that he'd want to finish "swordfish". so yeah, then i tried to convince him to come to the bon-fire we were having at church, but he was going somewhere with his dad. so yeah. theni went to the bon-fire thingy, got bored, and left. got home and didnt want to be there, so i went to the movies with melissa, then came home, got online, talked to a couple people and updated my journal...sounds like fun huh? today kinda sucked, but saturday makes up for it all. lol. yeah...
OMG! tonight, on the way home...i saved a possum. he was cute. lol. he was on my side of the road, and i stopped. and he looked at me, for you longest time, just standing there, and so i flashed my lights and he gave me a head nod thingy, and then walked across the rest of the road...i hope he didnt try to cross again...he was cute. lol. and yes, im sure it was a cute possum.
ok, well im kinda tired. i think im going to go make a couple phone calls and then fall asleep on the phone for a while...so yeah, talk to you all later....=-)
XoxO. <3
~Kristie*
ps. i dont want to go to school tomorrow, or write this damn paper. or take mid-terms. or worry about college. =-( i need my baby...
pss. wow. this entry turned out a lot longer then i expected it to....thats kule....good night!
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[Friday
December 9th, 2005
8:54pm] |
| Your 2005 Song Is | 
Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz
"Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me."
In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain. |
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[Monday
December 5th, 2005
2:03pm] |
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[Monday
November 28th, 2005
9:30pm] |
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Get out of the car, and don't try and stop me
Stay where you are, 'cause there you can't hurt me
You took things too far, and I don't deserve this
You said that you'd be, you'd always be honest
And mean what you say, but you broke every promise
That you ever made, and I don't deserve this
If I had just one bullet, and a trigger I'd pull it
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings, and gouge out his eyes
And thank him for nothing, 'cause that's all that he gave to me
Your love is my heart disease
Don't try and call, I'm not going to answer
I'm not going to fall for another disaster
That you put me through, and I don't deserve this
If I had just one bullet, and a trigger I'd pull it
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings and gouge out his eyes
And thank him for nothing, 'cause that's all that he gave to me
Your love is my heart disease
I don't care anymore
Because without you I'm better off.
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings and gouge out his eyes
And thank him for nothing, 'cause that's all that he gave to me
Your love is my heart disease
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings and ask him just why
He played such a sick joke on the fool that is me
And curse me with this sickness
Your love is my heart disease.
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[Monday
November 21st, 2005
2:10pm] |
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yeah! . . . updating . . . twice in one day. WOO HOO!!! actaully i dont really feel like updating, but everyone else is . . . so . . . yeah . . . im going to also. . . . well . . . no im really not . . . im just going to sit here and babble . . . haha . . . babbling is a funny words. . . . hehehe . . . yeah, i wanna bitch someone out on this thing, but at the same time i dont, i just want to do it to their face . . . but . . . i dont know . . . i dont want to be anything like her . . . oops . . . did i say her . . . i meant them . . . *looks around*. . . ok good, no one caught that . . . *shifty eyes* . . . nah, im not going to bitch . . . them out on here . . . that'd be too much like her . . . i should stop talking about it on here . . . cause you never know who could be reading it . . . WOW! dude, im in the WeirdesT mood right now. . . i have been all day . . . kinda weird if you ask me, i really dont have a clue why . . . on a more random note . . . i hate her . . .like a lot . . . a lot a lot . . . so much . . . she messes like everything up . . .only a few of you know who im talking about . . . i wonder if she reads this . . . i really do . . . maybe if i call her out on here, and see if she replys or does anything about it . . . that'd tell me if she was reading it . . . . someone called me a skank today . . . i laughed really hard . . . and told them to fuck themselves . . .
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[Monday
November 21st, 2005
10:08am] |
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wow. this class is so boring...i hate it...isnt that great? but guess what!!!!! i didnt fail! i actually passed on my report card! how kule is that?! like..wow...i totally thought that i had a 40 or something...heh. yeah, that made me happy...
i should be working on this project that we have...but i have plenty of time to do that...because its not due until...next week sometime...i think, no one really knows...but i dont think there is anyway we're presenting this week...i mean, theres only 1 1/2 days left...and were going second to last...so yeah...no chance in hell
in other news...KATIE MAGOO IS COMING THIS WEEKEND!! haha! how friggin awesome is that? like...wow...im so excited. like...you have no idea...=-D so happy.hehehe, i think that early friday, im going to drive to pick her up, then were going to the beach. then saturday were going to come back to CT. and shes staying until sunday. i think. that's exciting...isnt it?! i know!...wow...i miss that girl SO much. hehehe. so excited...im in like the weirdest mood...ask becka about chorus...wow...haha weirdness....
i think its because this weekend just was absolutly horrible. like...wow...i dont even want to get into it, i was so fucking depressed this weekend...i have no idea why...because most of saturday was awesome. but then saturday night through mostly all of sunday was just...wow...yeah...i dont know..and friday was just like...WOW. bad day. yeah...i dont even know why...but yeah...anyways...
but yeah, so now im all good, having a good day...nothings going wrong. havnt seen certain people...yeah. its awesome. =-) i think im in such a good/weird mood because we only have 3 1/2 days this week...hehehe...yeay! and i get to see my family...thats good for the most part. i get to see Sammy. =-D havnt seen him since he joined the marines really. i mean, i saw him at my Grandmas funeral...but that was it. it and that sucked...
so yeah, im going to go..."work" on this AmSt. project...hah...not.
Melis - "if your going to get an S.T.D. it should be American...screw that forgien shit...seriously...its gotta be American"
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[Monday
November 14th, 2005
9:40am] |
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ah! i dont want to be here...i cant believe its monday...i hate mondays...UGH! this weekend was weird...i was so happy at some points, and then so down and depressed at other points. like...wow...emotional extreames with no rhyme or reason...its really starting to scare me though. i can be SO increadibly happy one minuete. and then the next im like compleatly upset and so close to tears its not even funny. with like no warning...
i've gotten so good at hidding the way i feel lately though, no one knows what i really feel inside...i just cant share that with people...i dont want to be the person on the outside that i can on the inside, i want to be all happy and care-free, and most the time i am...but not lately...lately the stupidest little shit make me like cry for hours...shit that no one would even think would bother me...and its not you guys (my friends) that im taking about. so dont worry. most likely if your reading this, im not talking about you...then again...i dont know who reads this entry...so yeah...i might be talking about YOU.
alright. so...my weekend started out ok...i guess...i got outta school early, went home and slept. then joe called, i visited him on brake, and we made plans for later. i went home, took another nap, helped my mommy get ready to go out, then ordered the pizza, picked up a movie at blockbuster, got the pizza, got gas, and met joe after work. we went back to my house, watched the movie and ate the pizza...we did some other shit too, but thats ok, i dont think you guys care that much. so yeah...my parents were suppost to call before they came home, but they didnt, so it was a horrible shock to hear them downstairs...he was asleep on my lap, and yeah, i didnt feel like getting up. but i had to, so yeah, got up wicked fast, picked up the first random movie, through it in the DVD player, and found a random scene. so it looked like we were watching a movie. then i went downstairs. said hi to my parents and went back upstairs. hehe...
then his mom called because his cell doesnt work at my house, so yeah, then 12 came around, and my parents told me he had to go at 12, so we said bye and he left...=-( that was depressing, i hate saying good-bye to him..i hate when we have to say bye. its sad. but nothing we can do about it, so whatever.
so he leaves, i talk to my mommy for a little and he calls my cell phone, so i hang up- because i have horrible service at my house, and call him on the house phone. i love talking to him =-). so yeah, stayed up till like...i dont know 1:30 or so on the phone, and then went to sleep.
saturday morning...ugh! had to get up early, pick up my cousin, and go to waterford and paint this old building...that sucked...dont ask...but on my way to pick douga up, i drove past Joes and his mom wasnt home, it took everything in me to not stop and just go fall asleep with him....i wanted to SO fucking bad. but i couldnt. so yeah, i pick up my cousin, text joe telling him good morning and that i wanted to be with him, then drove to waterford...had to bring douga to his class, and waited outside in my car for an hour, for the hour, i was on the phone with joe...=-) made me happy. he was SO FUCKING cute when he answered...=-D so yeah, then painted from 11 till 3 and had made plans to meet joe at his house at 3:30. but he called and said that he had to bring his father home, so yeah...i was on my way back to my house, and i drove past joe, so i called him and he said he was going to his dads house, and i could come over, but i really wanted to go home and shower before i hung out with him, so i told him i'd call him when i got outta the shower, and we could figure something out. so yeah, i did, and we ended up having to go to westbrook with his dad. while we were there, we desided that we were going to go to the movies later. so we checked the times, and then had to bring his dad back home, but they were hungrey, so we got chinese food. i didnt want any...but joe force fed me two pieces of chicken because i hadnt eaten all day and he was worried. so then we went back to the movie theater. but they wouldnt sell us the tickets because we werent both 17...UGH! that pissed me off so much...SO FUCKING MUCH! so then we went back to his car, then i thought that my parents werent going to be home, so we desided to go back there, but i figured id call just incase, so i called and my dad answered...fuck! so now we couldnt go there, so we tried his moms house, she wasnt home, but was going to be in like an hour. he had to get his cell phone charger anyways, so we went there for like 45 mins, then went back to his dads house...i watched his play some video game for a little, then we went upstairs and watched what was left of "Saving Priate Ryan"...ew! thats all i can say, then we had to leave by 10:30. so he drove me back to my car. we stayed there until i had to go...(11:45)...when i left he mentioned that we werent going to be able to hang out until tuesday. =-( thats so fucking sad!
so i get home, and i was just like..really really tired...so yeah, i went to bed hoping that i wouldn t have to go to church and would just we able to sleep...but of corse i wouldbt be able to...my mom wakes me up and makes me go. UGH! so i sit in the back with AJ...texting back and forth with joe the entire time...we desided that im going to visit him on brake and yeah. so i drop my mom off at home, and at 12:30 i got see joe. =-) that we the last time i got to see him...=-( it was only 20 mins...but i love being with him so its ok. so then i went home and i was in one of those "no one loves me so im going to sit and watch depressing movies and think about how no one loves me" moods...so i watched Thirteen, and wrote joe the longest letter...opening up SO fucking much, im so scared to give it to him...but i know i have to...
so my parents get home, and we're all starving, so we deside to get pizza. my mom orders it, and we both go to get it. well. on the way there, my cell vibrates...meaning i have a voice message. so i listen to it, and its joe. wondering what im doing that night, so i said that i should invite him over to watch the movie that we were going to rent with me and my parents, and of corse my mom flips a shit. telling me that i need to, basically, stop being so easy and always there when he calls. basically telling me to play hard to get. so yeah...i wasnt allowed to invite him over...but he wouldnt have come anyways, he was busy...ish..i called him when we got to blockbuster, and he said that his game was over, and was just wondering what to do. said he'd call me later. so yeah...
we get home, watch the stupidest movie of all time ... "charlie and the chocolate factory" the new one with Johnny Depp. it was AWEFUL!!! dont ever see it. it was over at like.. 9...and i was wicked tired...
so iwent upstairs and figure i'd just listen to music, talk to people online and zone-out until he called. ...well...that didnt happen, i fell asleep at 9:30, and woke up at 11:40. when my phone started going off...so i looked at it, and he had texted me at like 11:04 asking if i was awake...so i texted him back saying yes, and he called me. we talked for like 10 mins, but he was at his dads, and he had bad reception there, so he said he'd talk to me later, and yeah...that was that...
like i said, i dont get to see him tonight...im really sad...but i guess its a good thing...i see him like everyday...and i guess as my mom says it'll be good to not see him for a day...=-( i want to be with him though...UGH! i dont want to have to work tonight
i want to color my hair again...more highlights...but i dont know when...i work monday, tuesday and thursday. im always with joe on wednesday and yeah...i dont know when, i guess friday or saturday...*sigh* whatever.
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hmm, i feel like updating...but i dont know what to say...im in photography...fucking boring...the teacher isnt here, so its like a study hall...and Amelia isnt here, so im bored.
so yeah...im SO fucking confussed lately...it sucks...i really dont like it...but i do at the same time...like...i think im happy now...but then something just feels wrong, and i dont know what...i just cant put my finger on it...and its starting to bother me...i just dont know what to think about anything. and its really starting to get to me...i think. yeah...i just...nevermind...i dont know...
ok, so yeah...i dont know what else to talk about, but i dont wanna talk about the only thing on my mind right now, at least not on LJ. cause people can read LJ and i dont need a buncha people knowing shit that they're not in anyway shape or form involved in...heh...
so..umm...wednesday night was...amazing. i had SO much fucking fun, like...wow...haha, some people know, and they're the only ones who will probably know, because i didnt tell a lot of people. but some people i just had to share it with. haha, so yeah, it was amazing. all i'll say is that im wicked tired. because we were suppost to go to a moive at 9:50, so i didnt have to be home till like...12:30ish. so yeah, we didnt end up going to the movie..you figure it out ;-P
i dont know what to think anymore though...UGH! i want to vent so bad...but...i dont want some people to read it. and i always feel bad making shit private or friends only. cause thats not nice. so i guess i'll make a journal entry just for myself. i'll go do that now.
peace out bitches. <3
xoxo.
~Kristie*
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[Wednesday
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so yeah...i guess i'll update...i dont really know what to say though...last night was absolutly horrible...like...oh man..it was just...wow...joe was suppost to come see my on brake, but couldnt because his father made him eat dinner at home, so then he came to see me, and yeah, it was all good.
then....after work, we went to the DEP like we normally do when people are home, and we took a walk to the end of the dock...i could tell something was up, but he wasnt saying anything...so then, we're sitting in my car...and he starts talking about how he wants to be just friends because he isnt ready for a relationship, but that he likes me a lot...and i dont know basically want to put me on hold...like he wants me to wait for him...wait for him to be ready for a relationship...
...this like..as you can imagine...really upseted me...like...wow...i couldnt even talk, we sat there in silence for like...what seemed like ever...there were so many things i needed to say but couoldnt make myself.... so i just left..i told him i was going for a walk....i got up and walked away...leaving him in my car...went and sat on the dock, and saw him walking back to the A&P where his car was. so i ran like hell back to my car, and picked him up...because i knew i couldnt just let him go like that, i like him way to fucking much to just let him walk away from me...so yeah. we went back to the A&P parking lot, and stayed ... basically in silence...till 9:50...that was horrible. it was so hard for me not to just like...explode...cry so hard...i opened up to him so much though.
when he got out of my car..we didnt know what we were...we didnt know if we were still together or not...that was the worst. i felt so bad, because i think i told him i didnt want to just be friends...because it would hurt so much, hanging out with him, knowing that i cant have him...i like him way to much for that...ya know? hes like the first serious boyfriend ive had. the first one i actually cared about, the first one i wanted to be with...and i dont think i could be just friends with him...
so i get home, i was bawling my eyes out on the way home, cause i had held it in the whole time i was with him. so yeah. i get home, and my car clock says 9:58...and im like, thank god. im on time...i walk in, and my mom flips a shit on my telling me im 2 mins late. that just like...UGH! so i just blew her off. went straight to my room, slammed the door, turned around and my dads sitting at my computer...starts yelling at me because its "all my fault that there are so many viruses on my computer" ...i just like...flipped out...im so fucking lucky that i didnt find a razor..=-(
so yeah. i needed someone to talk to...i couldnt figure out who, then joe came online. and i was talking to him. cause he was the only person i felt comfortable talking to .... which i dont get...since it was his fault i was in sucha dead mood...so yeah...anyways.. we talked till...i dont even know when, about what was happening...and in the end, we just left it. but things seemed to be looking up...
my away message was "and incase you were wondering...
you are like a sunset to me...
your all kinds of beautiful as you end my days...<3"
he woke me up this morning appoligizing for last night, by sending me a heart. and then a long ass paragraph about what was going on...we had the most intense conversation and then i think we decided that we like eachother too much to let all this shit stop us from being together...so were still together i think. im not too sure.
this morning he was outside the school. it was so nice to see him this morning, but it was also so painful, because like...i like him like no one would believe...he is like the only person who can make me happy...but also...he hurt me so much last night...and i dont know...it was just really hard seeing him...but i think it was good, cause it would have been worse if we waited longer to see eachother after last nights and this mornings conversations. i didnt really get to talk to him...because there were people around him, whatever...i think were hanging out tonight, after his classes...i really wish we could hang out when i get outta school..but i dont think we can... and were going to talk about it.
i feel really bad that he was here this morning also...because i know that Krista didnt need to see him...i know how she feels about him, and i felt really bad. but he just needed to clear some shit up...before more rumors started...
*sigh*...i really need him right now...i want to be with him SO fucking bad...i dont know what i would do without him...i feel so stupid saying that...but its true..i like him so much, he makes me so happy...like...why would i have needed to talk to him last night...i ...i dont know...nevermind i guess. i really hope this shit gets settled...
i think i need to talk to Krista...because so many people keep telling me to. telling me that she wants to talk to me about this, telling me that i need to confront her...i dont even know what going on..i really would have no problem talking to her..but i dont know what to say...i really dont...but i dont know...maybe if i come face to face with her, i can figure out something out...who knows...whatever happens, happens...so yeah...who knows...
alrighty...well...wow...long ass entry...im sorry. ya'll dont have to read it...it just feels good to get everything out...
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October 30th, 2005
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[Monday
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hmm, ok, so yeah, im in study hall...i hate this study hall without melissa...its so damn boring. haha yeah. so lets see, i just had Geom...Joe confussed me SO much..and on purpose too. they all thought it was funny...well, i guess it was. hah, but it was confussing =-). yeah, lol. so hmm, this weekend was awesome. had SO much fun. friday after school i drove up to Mass and yeah, it was ok. got there and met Arya and Tim (tim is magoos boyfriend.) they're nice, i drove them to McDonalds...that was so funny. it was ...yeah, lets just leave it at this...before we left Magoos house, they convinced Arya to take this pill that was this like herbal boner pill. that had goat weed in it. so yeah...it was funny, because Arya had no idea what the pill was. so yeah. lets just leave it at that. it was the best time i think ive ever had at McDonalds...hah...yeah...
so then we drove around for a while. went to the Rez. got freaked out and left again...drove around somemore...did some shit..then came back to Magoos. both Matt and Mike thought that we were all stoned or something, but they didnt do anything about it, they just told Magoo and me that they didnt want us smoking in my car. so yeah, we didnt. hah. then lets see, we hung out in Matts room for a while, played with Talula..shes awesome. shes a ferrit. awesome. yeah, then me and magoo brought tim and arya home and yeah, went back to her house and slept. but i really wanted to talk to joe, cause i missed him so much after spending time with Magoo and her Boyfriend, i wanted to be with mine, so i called him, but his phone was off or something, so i left a message and went to sleep. so yeah, 2am rolls around and he calls me back, but i didnt answer it cause i was i dont know...pissed or something, i dont know why but i was, he left a cute message but i couldnt really understand it, so i just called him back in the morning...later morning and yeah...
so lets see, saturday morning we woke up and had planned not to go to the beach because we wouldnt be able to see Fetus cause he would be at work. but then Joey called us and convinsed us to come, so we got there around like...3 and stayed until like...i dont know 6:15 or so...it was fun, those guys were HOT. lol. but they were all like younger then me, and i didnt want to cheat on joe or anything, so i thought about him all day. so yeah, those three guys get in the car and were all like, what to do what to do...oh by the way, they were all hammered. lol. so they desides it would be fun to go to this abandonded insane assilume...no. so they told me where to drive...they got us compleatly lost and yeah...there was more shit that we did, but im not going to tell you about it in here, if you wanna know, just ask and ill tell you, but i dont wanna write it on here, so yeah...on the way home, we stopped at Burger King, and saw Fetus through the window. it was kule. then we went back to the beach and dropped this kid Ryan(cushin) off at his house, and yeah. then me, magoo, ryan (debello) and joey were in the car and they saw some other kids they knew. me and magoo knew them too so we picked them up...meaning i had6 people in my car. including me...yeah...that was interesting, haha. we brought lil' Weaver, and another Ryan...i dont know his last name, home, beacuse we and kaite really wanted to see Porta and Weaver. but they were no where to be found, so we hung out at Weavers for a little then me and magoo had to go.\
we got so fucked lost on the way home...but its all good. cause we got home and had so many reasons why we were late...so her father didnt need to know the truth...that we left 2 hours after we said we were going to leave. yeah...dont ask.
so i called joe, when we got home, but he couldnt talk to something, so i told him to call me later. then me and magoo just like passed out and joe called and woke me up at like...11 or so. i dont remember. so he told me to go back to sleep since he had woken me up. so i did. lol. woke up sunday morning around 10 because Joe texted me, and yeah. took a shower and drove home...on the way home...i got SO lost. yeah...it was horrible. lol. but i made it. so yeah
got home at 3 and went straight to hang out with Joe...we just went over to his house...=-D it was awesome. i missed him so much, so yeah. then when we both had to go, i went out to my car and it was absolutly dead. that sucked ass. cause he really had to go and i wasnt allowed to be there in the first place because his mom wasnt home. yeah, so i called my mom and dad, they brought my cousin and he jumped my car. then i brought douga (my cousin) to Ajs for the Deminican Republic dinner and my parents followed. then we were there for a while. joe called but i couldnt answer it, and then i had to bring him home. so yeah, when i finally got home, i called joe back but he wasnt allowed to be on the phone, that sucked, but i got to go to bed earli...er then i would have if i had talked to him all night like always.
so yeah...that was my weekend...it was awesome as i said...i love being with him SO much, he makes me SO happy...yesterday was awesome! =-D
i gotta work today...that sucks, but i got to see him after...cant wait....like he said...hes addicted to me...i think im starting my addiction on him. =-) <3. yeah...heheh...im bored...this is a wicked long entry...that sucks if you read it all...im sorry it was boring. =-|
xoxo. <3
~Kris*
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